Unfortunate

It is quite unfortunate that I started this with such vigor... and then...

Nothing.

Oye, here we go again!

I pray for consistency. Not only in accountability for this journal, but consistency in my pursuit of the Lord and His healing embrace. This is a conquest in the Lord's name rather than a victory of will through my own feeble attempts.

A quote from a book that I am currently reading captures the essence of how I feel about my commitment to the crucial aspects of life: shallow desires produce shallow efforts.

I want neither

My efforts in life should be a means to glorify Jesus. ALL of my efforts. ALL of the things I choose to associate myself with. Not some. Not the "church related." EVERYTHING should be done to glorify our Father.

So here is to giving EVERYTHING

Here's to victory in CHRIST

Here's to denial of the lies that BIND US

Here's to using God-breathed language in communicating the freedom of our ABBA FATHER

Here's to bringing the kingdom of HEAVEN to Earth

Here's to ushering in our Lord's return by loving on His people in TANGIBLE WAYS

Here's to addressing personal growth and rectification to birth new/REAL LIFE IN HIM

I heard this song (The Desert Song) a while ago. It awakened something inside of me.

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am conqueror and co- heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life in every season
You are still God,
I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I received I will sow

I am in a perceived desert staring in thirst at a mirage of water. The victory I have in Christ emphatically declares that I am, in reality, swimming in His deep, deep grace.